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Nothing Great to Say

Hi all. I wasn’t going to post today. Why? Because I didn’t really feel I had anything great to say. I didn’t run yesterday – shocker. I didn’t make anything particularly exciting to eat (and yes, our gas is still broken and I have no stove/oven), and I don’t have a book review to share.

So – I figured no one would want to hear from me. But…I also kind of felt like writing. Sometimes it’s just cathartic. So I decided to write this blog post anyway. I mean, the name of my blog is just a jumping off point, but it shouldn’t really limit what I can say.  Right?

So what’s on my mind today. Changes. There seems to be a lot of them happening all around me. Do you ever feel that way. That you’re just standing there watching everything change and morph before your very eyes?

To start, my boss gave her resignation last week, so swallowing that news was pretty big. After the initial shock, then I began thinking about how my life at my job will change – probably more work, maybe a new boss, etc. If I’m being honest, I’ll say that I’m not all that great with change. So these thoughts kind of started to weigh me down.

Second – I’ve been noticing lots of changes in the blog world. Some bloggers have gone missing (sadness) or decided to stop blogging altogether. Just when I get in my groove of checking my favorite blogs each day, then they up and disappear. I know blogging is an ever-changing world. Admittedly, I too have been that missing blogger. And some day, I’ll probably even be that blogger that signs off for good. But it’s still kind of like losing a friend. 😦

Third – big trips (even vacations) tend to make me a little nervous at first. Once I’m actually on the trip I relax, but all the stuff leading up to it gives me anxiety. I typically tend to think that a) I’m going to forget something major (like my passport)  b) we’re going to miss our flight or it will be cancelled and c) I’ve forgotten to plan some crucial aspect of the trip – like reserve a hotel. So until Sunday night when I am on that plane, I’m probably going to be a bit of a nutcase.

And fourth – I feel kind of lost without a marathon to train for. I actually feel jealous of my friend who is running the Bay State Marathon in October. I know that sounds kind of sick, but training for a marathon has become kind of like a cherished routine for me now. It provides that motivation and that big goal that I’ve found I really like and need. It’s a constant in my life and I actually really miss it.

So that’s where my head is today. I’m trying to stay sane and focused in the midst of many changes. I actually think this vacation is coming at a very opportune time. I need to get away for a bit.

What about you? Do you like change? How do you cope with it? Are there any big life changes happening for you right now?